confused mind speaks again!

sometimes i wonder, do i really want to be with him?
does he love me because we have something in common?
or he loves me because he has to and that he's getting old and needs someone already?
is he just being a gentle man and sticking up to his words "i love you" but the truth is he doesn't really mean it but he doesn't want me to get hurt?
all this questions are just a bunch of questions not bothering to be answered....
questions i keep asking myself but i don't really know why i'm asking them

i'm inlove, he's a great guy, smart, lovable, huggable, funny, great sence of humor, but, he's not at all romantic (i think) well he thinks about my welfare and all but then when it comes to being romantic, i have to say he is failing!
how can i teach him? everytime i feel i needed reminding that somebody loves me, someone "special", he's never there...

anybody having this situation? join the club!

lakawon trip

it was fun! we woke up 6 am, on the road by 830 am, arrived in Lakawon around quarter to 10, Jesse went there with the speedboat together with captain joey (also a pilot) with his wife annie, and maxine (their daughter)... it was soooo fun! jesse and joey went skiing, my cousins went banana boat riding, my dad went snorcling, my aunt and uncle went swimming, my brother and lolo slept, my mom studied her reviewer for NCLEX, all in all it was a day to relax! mommy, (though she was studying) felt relaxed also because of the ambiance, we had fun and didn't want that day to end, but it had to, jesse, joey and his family had to go back to manila and work, everybody went back to bacolod... but it was a moment worth remembering! hehehehe