great morning!

you ever get the feeling of waking up feeling fresh and ready to start a new day?
i just did!
the feeling of wanting to smile the whole day without any reason at all!
the feeling of being inspired to do work, to dance, to study

i got up early this morning coz my puppy got hungry
but before that i read this inspiring message from a friend
and it made my day!
i would usually wake up around 10 am then go back to bed 5 min. later
but this morning i woke up around 7 am fixed the bed,
took pixie out, fed her, played with her then she went back to sleep

as for me, i took a bath and ate breakfast.
It's really nice to start a new day fresh and happy!

great morning everybody!

i'm inlove with my new baby!

my dad gave me this cute white Labrador puppy...
her name's pixie!
i fell in love with her the moment i saw her...
she's so cute and adorable!
all she does is sleep, eat, sleep again, eat, poop, eat again then sleep... hahaha
finally i have someone to spoil and spend my money on! haha
i love you pixie!

a friend of mine!

I’ve known you for so long
You are a friend of mine
But is this all we’d ever be?
I’ve loved you ever since
You are a friend of mine
And babe is this all we ever could be?

Refrain:
You tell me things I’ve never known
I shown you love you’ve never shown
But then again, when you cry
I’m always at your side
You tell me ’bout the love you’ve had
I listen very eagerly
But deep inside you’ll never see
This feeling of emptiness
It makes me feel sad
But then again I’m glad

I’ve known you all my life
You are a friend of mine
I know this is how it’s gonna be
I’ve loved you then and I love you still
You’re a friend of mine
Now, I know friends are all we ever could be

You tell me things I’ve never known
I shown you love you’ve never shown
But then again, when you cry
I’m always at your side
You tell me ’bout the love you’ve had
I listen very eagerly
But deep inside you’ll never see
This feeling of emptiness
It makes me feel sad
But then again
Then again
Then again I’m glad

a night with my kahayag family!

GUD NIGHT FRIENDS!

i love my friends.

i love how they laugh at me whenever i crack stupid jokes.
i love how they laugh with me whenever i feel high.
i love how they get angry whenever i forget my responsibilities.
i love how they put my heart back together after it was torn apart by some stupid ass.

and yeah, i love how they seem to make the world euphoric with just a hug or a pat on the back...

and im inlove with the idea that you are one of them...

good night my friends!

unchained melody

i use to think that i was strong
i know realize that i was wrong
coz' everytime i see your face
my mind becomes an empty space

i close my eyes
and think of you

i close my eyes the moment i surrender to you
i get lost everytime i look at you

my schedule

time to rest everybody!
i had a very long day today...

woke up around 4 am to study
went to school 7am
class started 730 to 12 noon
went to SM with Jamie around 12:30
had lunch at KFC
had coffee at figaro
went back to school 3:00 pm
studied my major again 3:00-5:00pm
ate dunkin donut and made chicka2x 5:00-5:30pm
class started 5:00-7:00pm
ballet class after 7:30-8:30pm
just arrived...

time to take a bath, get a massage, study and sleep...
hehehe

9th of JULY

this day had so many memories....

*Those stargazing nights!
reminiscing on the night we shared glances...
a night at the amphi after my danctroupe rehearsal...
those sweet words i heard from you for the very first time...
those cuddles we had coz it was cold
those kiss you gave coz you loved me
the smile you showed coz you said i made you happy
which made me happy at the same time
then you took me home
just when i thought everything was a dream
you reached for my hand and kissed it...
then it all started another chapter of my life...

but it had to end, cloud nine's over...
and i am now letting it all go
coz somehow i have to...
no regrets of what we had,nor regrets on memories to keep... :)
it'll be treasured.
The past made me grow inside and out...
(you know who you are)


*Another important event that happened on this very day
was the birth of a nice and the bestest friend i ever had.
He was more than a friend, no words could describe the kind
of friendship we had.
He became my partner for 10 months, sad to say it had to end
coz he went somewhere far...
thank God he left me those memories worth keeping and treasuring...
i know he's somewhere out there, i know he's just watching over us
i will forever treasure the things we had in the past...
somehow i have gotten over what happened to him...
i learned to accept the fact that he is gone...(i'm having goosebumps!)
wherever you are Clint, i'll always include you in my prayers... :)

an opinion

A lot of people find it hard to relate or understand the story of a certain ballet repertoire.Some find it boring, some think it's a waste of time spending those hours sitting inside the theater and watching, watching and watching and not understanding what the ballerinas are portraying. It's either the dancers don't know how to portray the role very well or the audience just don't want to dig in deeper to the thought of what the dancers are trying to portray, in other words they don't use their imagination coz they're so serious and they interpret it literally...get the point?

artists!

i have always imagined myself staying in a place where performers stay...
a dorm where all kinds of artist sleep, rest, or do whatever they want to do...
a place where we can express ourselves without people minding us coz they think its art!
a place where our imagination can grow...
a place where we can express ourselves through dance, poetry,paintings, and all other kinds of art!

is it hard to look for those places?
looking for it isn't hard, it's all over the world
conservatories, dormitories for artists, theater, opera houses,etc.
what's hard is, how to get there, how to qualify for scholarships
coz lets face the fact that not all artist are wealthy (for starters)...

great artist have struggled a lot in the past
but it never stopped them, they took it as challenges in life they have to overcome,
and that made them wealthy, wise and strong
i have come across a lot of local/international artists
and they all said the same thing: (the thought)
*being an artist isn't easy, you have to struggle and defend your art
*one of the challenges, is how you'll be able to fascinate the crowd
*art is simple but it takes an artist to bring it out into the world and show it to the people
*it takes an artist to teach the people how to love art, specially those who think art is just a waste of time

i would LOVE to be one of those artist, and in order to do that i have to overcome several challenges on my own, but i think of it this way, it would be the best chapter in my life if i will be able to reach that dream..."what was once a dream is now a reality" this will be the phrase i would someday love and enjoy saying.

i am starting the first chapter of my struggles.
*how to balance ballet life and graduate as a nurse at the same time... hahahah
it'll take a lot of time before i will reach both but then sooner or later i will reach it. I will because i WANT to, not because i HAVE to...

to those struggling artist out there... keep on struggling, you will soon reach that point in life when you can say "what was once a dream is now a reality"

make- believe

confusion rushed through
the veins of my brain
were all those real?
or were they just make-believe?

midnight breeze take me away tonight
take me somewhere silent
somewhere calm and peaceful
let me think again...

pacify me
cradle me till i doze off
whisper those cool breeze into my ear
let me hear those whistling tune of your breath

gently caress my hair
my face, my cheeks and neck
put me into deep slumber
and never dare wake me

until i realize it was all make-believe
slap me with reality
burn me with the fire of real life
hit me with the truth

You’re in my arms

And all the world is calm

The music playing on for only two

So close together And when I’m with you

So close to feeling alive

A life goes by Romantic dreams will die

So I bid mine goodbye and never knew

So close was waiting, waiting here with you

And now forever I know

All that I wanted to hold you So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end

Almost believing this was not pretend

And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come

So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days

If I should lose you now?

We’re so close To reaching that famous happy end

And almost believing this was not pretend

Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are

So close So close And still so far

men and women from my school

you won't believe the kind of women we have
at our school, same goes with the guys!

guys- they meet a girl introduced by a friend... if they like the girl
they would usually ask for the number, then start texting, then
here's the funny part, they'll deny the fact that they already
have a girlfriend, a child or a wife!
then when their partner finds out they reverse the situation,
they would say that the girl asked for his number and started texting
him, that she would want to meet him somewhere... these are the kind of
guys we have! they think women are stupid like them, they think they
are so handsome that they can have the women they want.. hahah
not in my world...

women- they listen to the guy or their boyfriends, they act stupid!
they listen to every single word the guy says, they don't even bother
looking for proofs, as long as it's from the mouth of the guy then its true!
BULLSHIT! so most of our girls in our school are what we call palengkeras!
its common to hear "bigaon ka!" "mang-aagaw!" "gaga!" "he's mine bigaon"
etc. etc. etc. there!


see how cheap they are! OMG! if all girls are like this, guys would think they are so handsome that girls would fight for them! IMAGINE that! sorry to say i'm not one of those girls! BUYAG!
girls naman! pls. keep your dignity intact fight if you think you have to fight, but fighting for a boyfriend who is "babaero" is useless! you'll just look bad in public! guys usually enjoy this scene (girls fighting over them) to think that they're not even worth fighting for!

bottom line- women keep your heads up high, don't listen right away, look for proofs and then when you have proven it, think first if it's worth a fight! think think think! don't ruin your reputation over a guy who's not even worth it!
guys, if you think all girls are stupid that they'll just fall on their knees and praise you, you're WRONG! some desperate women may do that but not all! so if you think you can get away with cheating the first time, think twice before doing it again coz women may have forgiven you with what you've done before but they DON't forget! keep that in mind!